The reason I wanted a blog together with John was because I wanted readers to see the good and bad of a relationship. The only thing is, John would get mad if I posted anything negative about him. Well I’m going to be honest here: I’m worried that John is just going to go along with this Christian thing just because I’m doing it. I feel like he could go through the motions of it to make me happy but maybe he doesn’t feel a deep desire and purpose nagging within him for this. No, not maybe, I know for a fact he doesn’t feel the same way I do but that’s okay. I can handle that because I don’t expect everyone to believe what I believe or feel the same emotions I feel. I just really wish he felt the same way. I at least know that he’ll respect my decisions and pray/read the bible with me/talk about things/play music with me. He believes in what I believe he’s just lacking the passion for it. Maybe it will come, maybe it won’t. That’s okay… but I still wish we both felt that it was somehow urgent and important. By the way tonight I was tricked by some friends into eating horse radish and I thought I was going to die. Thanks Nancy, for almost kind of killing me but not really since I didn’t even come close to dying at all. Oh and did I fail to mention that John and I aren’t having sex/sexual activities of any kind until the wedding night from this point on? It’s only a month away, it’s not a very long wait. Well maybe it will seem like a long wait for John haha, I don’t know.